Some things are a complete mystery to me how I do my very best to do the right thing and it all turns out wrong. How some people can make up the biggest brainless rubbish and it is concidered genius.  But we all know that success in this life does not always come the way it should by hard work and brains but by who we know. If we know the right people we don’t need the hard work the talent or the brains some times because we will get a lift up anyway and they will make whatever we do acceptable to the world that is how fashion’s start we often go yuk! at first then we are wearing it.


Darker and colder.

It is getting darker and colder each day now winter as set in but still the tree’s in all there glory are showing us how beautiful they are. I love walking in the leaves, it is such a beautiful but sad time before the rebirth, the ressurection of life begins again in the spring.

The grab and brag memes.

Believe me you would not want a so called family like mine they never visit me, never ask how i am, never send me a card and don’t care if I am dead or alive but on 0cashion’s i get info letting me know what they are up to because my grandson is in a band but I don’t want to know anymore I call them the ME,me’s they live to impress other people and what they can get they are an embarrassment and seeing how they grab and brag so much makes me know I am better of without them.


Soon it will be Christmas yes Christmas that is what this up and coming holiday is supposed to be about wether any one likes it or not and there is no feel of it atall very little atmosphere, very few decorations or signs of Christmas coming any where. What happened to that wonderful spirit, now nobody cares it is just a time to spend,spend, spend.

Cruel world.

So many people today are let down by others more than ever before, they are lied to and much deceiving goes on, much using of others for there own ends. Good people are accused of bad things. It as become common to hear of shootings, knife attacks, careless cruel deaths, neglect of some’s own helpless children starved of love and left hungry with broken bones and bruises whilst mother’s stand before everyone along with there man looking as though what they have done is there own business and that child’s life was not any thing to fuss about whilst that child suffered unbelievable neglect and pain and they did nothing to help only continued to abuse and any one who might be able to help as done nothing. People die alone left some times for weeks and nobody calls or cares until there is a bad smell they complain about and it is too late. People will report others before they will turn there hand to help make there life easier and avoid the worse things that can happen. 0ld people are dumped in homes and forgotten by family’s. Nothing is sacred any more. This is not the case for every one there are some good people who still have respect for there parent’s even if they have not been the best of parent’s but too many don’t care all respect for them as gone and some of those parent’s have given so much .

Unprepared world.

It is so easy to scare one’s self when we think deep thoughts, easy to see vision’s faces of people we have never even met come before us, happenings we hope will never be.

I once had a dream of thousands of people running, children being trampled into the ground by a human stampede, what were they running from you might say, a roaring came from the sky as it flashed thunder and lightning the roaring was terrifying, rain poured and people could barely stand let alone run but they still tried every one was afraid, we knew the time had come to answer for who and what we had done in our life and many were unprepared and shocked by what was happening. The world had changed in a very short time to a scary place where nothing mattered except to try to escape from this terrible thing we all knew we must answer to. I was safe I was looking out at it all watching the horror but I was still afraid.