Lots of things cross my mind like how difficult it is these days to get an intelligent conversation with any one we have all got so used to computor’s where an answer might come to our quest or not. Where so many just want to brag and boast about themselves on facebook where some try to make themselves popular at all costs and want to boast the huge following they have all pointless meaningless stuff. I think of how some people want to blame other’s for how they feel about them its ” He does this or he does that I don’t like”, or “I don’t like the way he lives so I have nothing to do with him” Many of the reason’s are exscuses. Some people will report some one as not coping to authoritys before they will give that person a helping hand. And how things have got so much worse with children suffering terrible neglect not through lack of money but lack of love. Murder no longer shocks people as it once did we hear nearly every day that some one as killed some one even a child, well I know they want religion removed from School and any where else but religion was the one thing that made us all draw the line and say “No I won’t do that I draw the line there”, now there is nothing stopping any one doing any evil there is no line they will not cross.
Up at 6.0clock again must be at hospital for 9.0clock for my blood test taken each week because my kidneys were badly effected by the illness before my op- and the hospital said I must have them checked regular, turned out to be more regular than expected with pills I am given that might make things worse. Each time I hope I am 0k again so hate hospital’s. Looking forward to the summer time and warmer days. Must take my little dog out before I got to hospital and have some thing to eat or I will fade out before dinner time. Turned out a lot more people waiting today and many with coughs and colds.
We can all make a difference to anybody’s day with a smile or a kind word it really cost us nothing. 0r we can do the opposite and be grumpy and mean toward’s some one and make there day a drab one.
I thought I was too old to fall in love
passion had left my life
I thought it no longer mattered
I gave it not a second thought then one day I
came home from hospital after a serious illness
and a man I had hardly noticed before reached
out to me he hugged me close and I realised soon
after I had fell in love
We looked across at one another and his face
gave it all away we wanted
to be together but we were both deeply involved
with some one else we cared about
But this we had together we had never felt
and did not dare let it happen
it would hurt too many people.
It was painful neaither of us could offord what
this would mean.
I think of him all the time never
a day goes by I long to be with him but I know it
would cost too much for us to be together
and we must face that it mean’s goodbye.
Can you hear it laughing
we are fooled by the weather
the sun comes out the sky is
blue and we think spring has
arrived then it goes hehehe
I fooled you and down
comes the rain or the snow
the wind and the bitter cold
and back to winter we go
it is winter one day summer
the next we don’t know
what to do
we take the brolly and
out comes the sun we put
on the summery clothes
and cold it goes.
I would like to be a bit more pushy
like some people that I know but once
you say you like some thing they bore
you through and through they never
stop sending you photographs of themselves
doing this and that this is Me they say
sitting in the bath, this is Me in the garden
this is Me having my hair done this is me
when I married this is Me with my man this
is Me at Christmas this is my new dress
this is my new car
it is all about Me.
My New Year resolution’s did not last the way
I hoped they would before the first week was out
I slipped and fell
the simple yoga exercise had left me a painful
It was not a good idea to carry on
Bible study it was hard to find the
time with so much to do but I did
give it a go and will find
the time to do
Meditation this I love but motivating
myself does not happen as
often as it should.
I am ready for the summer
as excited as can be
I bought a trough to fill with
flower’s all colour’s
you might never ever see
Yellow start’s the spring with
daffodil’s that bloom masses
of them every where
they brighten up any gloom
next will come the tulip bulbs
bright colour’s to lighten any day
flower’s every where what a treat to see.
It is nearly spring, it is just around the corner, soon we will be planting seeds and pottering in the garden again and lieing out in the sunshine, people will stop in the street to chat again, birds will be singing, there will be children playing and benches full of people lazying around. 0ut will come summer clothes and people caring more about how they look than winter permits.
Where will this year lead us I wonder. Having joined a genealogy group I have learned quite a lot about myself from the family I never met. Many of my father’s side of the family live in America and I find my mother’s brother was a high ranking policeman, all interesting stuff.