That’s life.

By the time Christmas is just half through I will be fed up with every thing about it and my best moments will be out walking my dog.

Christmas talk, Christmas films, Christmas decorations, Christmas paper, Christmas shopping. I will be happy to be back to a normol average boring day, 0h and Christmas party’s huh! what Christmas party’s? not really a party person and don’t like crowded places.

Will be happy feeding my face with goodys having a laugh and looking forward to a trip to the lakes and burying my nose in a good book.

To do the right thing.

We never know who we are speaking to so to speak on the net some times it can be some one pretending to be some one else but if they are they are not being true to themselves. Christian’s are the first to be criticized people who try to do the right thing they don’t claim to be any better or different from any one else except for a love of god.

All alone.

I always think a lot of people are cocky about not having any belief as though they think they have it all and know it all getting quite irritated by some one elses belief in god. But I wonder how they would have coped with life had they been born into my life. I was dumped as a baby and adopted by a woman who took me to replace another child she had lost she called me horrible names I have never repeated and when she got fed up with me she dumped me in a home where my foster dad fetched me back from.  Later I marriad a man who beat me and robbed me my kids watched it happen and grew up to still take his side and blame me, he refushed to maintain them though he never deniged they were his and so I had to. I was allowed no friends and cut of from everybody for year’s. Without my faith I would not have survived.


Some things are a complete mystery to me how I do my very best to do the right thing and it all turns out wrong. How some people can make up the biggest brainless rubbish and it is concidered genius.  But we all know that success in this life does not always come the way it should by hard work and brains but by who we know. If we know the right people we don’t need the hard work the talent or the brains some times because we will get a lift up anyway and they will make whatever we do acceptable to the world that is how fashion’s start we often go yuk! at first then we are wearing it.

The grab and brag memes.

Believe me you would not want a so called family like mine they never visit me, never ask how i am, never send me a card and don’t care if I am dead or alive but on 0cashion’s i get info letting me know what they are up to because my grandson is in a band but I don’t want to know anymore I call them the ME,me’s they live to impress other people and what they can get they are an embarrassment and seeing how they grab and brag so much makes me know I am better of without them.


Soon it will be Christmas yes Christmas that is what this up and coming holiday is supposed to be about wether any one likes it or not and there is no feel of it atall very little atmosphere, very few decorations or signs of Christmas coming any where. What happened to that wonderful spirit, now nobody cares it is just a time to spend,spend, spend.